I too had quit my UPSC dream in college and went on to join one of the the Big Four because I didn’t had enough trust in myself. I thought I won’t be able to clear civil services so why take a risk.I never had that confidence in me.
One day I was sitting with a senior of mine and he was working. I asked him “ so sir How is it going”. He said “How will it go, its my daily bread so I have to do it whether I like it or not” . Then I asked him that why don’t you leave it. He simply replied “now its too late, I have been doing this since years so I have to continue with it”.
Two things I learnt that day. If you don’t like your job no matter how much respect or perks it has , you will never enjoy that, as its just not your way of life. Secondly never give yourself a chance to regret. “ I wish I had not given up then”. And that was the biggest reason I quit my job and prepared for civil services again.
I personally don’t find any logic in quitting up your dream, for you feel you just not capable enough. No one is born with capabilities , we have to learn capabilities to excel in life. And it is easy to learn when there is a desire or drive.
You want your dream accomplished but you are not ready to pay the price of accomplishing it. Failures, challenges, frustration and risk are definitely the price to pay.
You are not a loser, having failures in life and being an average is infact a boon as it never lets you become complacent. All you need is more clarity about what you want in life and how to go about it. And in achieving that if you meet with failures it is totally fine. At least you will be happy that you gave your self ample chance to do what you wanted in life.
Sometimes you have to trust yourself and make a genuine effort. And when you persistently do that with patience things do change, confidence do come , success do happen and then dreams do get fulfilled.
Just don’t be in someone’s else shoes for rest of your life . Get your own ones, no matter how they look like. You are young enough to take a risk to do what you want in life.Just trust yourself that you are good enough to chase down your dreams.
I almost always face this situation..some keep very high hopes on me and some think i am wasting my time instead of enjoying God given comforts and some,no,most of them think that i am just not capable enough..all this adds to the pressure and confusion...stopped paying heed to all that and had only one thing in mind 'i just dont want to regret later that i did not try'..Moreover i enjoy the experience..the preparation itself moulds you in many ways..so,IAS or not,atleast we become citizens with awareness..
ReplyDeleteanyways,thanks for your encouraging words and all the best for your future and make the best out of the opportunity you got to serve the nation. Jai Hind!!!